My Chinese friends feel that it is hard to pronounce my English name-- Keziah. Actually, my English name is from the bible, the second daughter of Job after God testified him.

When I try to explain why I chose this name as my English name, it is about the love affairs which I had in past. I broke the first relationship because my first boyfriend got another girl in his heart. I was SO painful that I wanted to get rid of my life in the world, I did not believe that I would find another guy who would love me with all his heart and soul. Then, I tried to do something silly to harm myself. I remember that I recalled something in my mind when I was in the darkness.

"I loved that guy with all my heart, but my love to him was not complete. Then, he got away and treated me badly afterwards, I felt deeply painful in my heart. But, what about me? God loves me with His love without conditions. His love is complete. But, I always offend Him by doing sin everyday. If He were me, I would not think how much He got hurt in His heart because of me this sinner."

At that time, I prayed to God: Lord You are so good, and Thank You for Your love to me, I want to serve You with all my heart and soul, I do not want to act like my boyfriend treating me to You, because You love me so deeply. God’s love touched me so deeply

When I was with that guy, Mickey was my English name. I looked for this name when I had an electronic dictionary, it translated that Mickey meant something useless. I was so embarrassed and I did not dare to tell others. But, because of that broken relationship, I read the bible and grasped God's promise everyday in the darkness. I came across this name "Keziah". I picked it up as my English name, instead of "Mickey" later. Since my life is "useless" and very "self-centered" (like the translation of the name Mickey) But when I went through this test from the Lord (the relationship breaking up) I felt that God refreshed and reconstructed my life after that. It was like Job, he did not know what God did in his life before. However, he could say "My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you." after God testified him. Also, God granted him many blessings afterwards. Keziah is one of his daughters who her father granted her an inheritance along with her brothers and she was also the most beautiful at that time. I totally feel that my life is like that after this broken relationship. God granted me more and made me more beautiful. Praise the Lord!

So, God is the most important in my life. Because I submitted to Him, He made me come across the best guy who He prepared for me in 2 years ---- Adrian Sandor.